Monday, May 04, 2009

Heart of hearts

They say that each one of us has a spot deep deep inside our soul that our dearest desires, loves, feelings, thoughts lie. This place is so easy to reach with our dreams but so difficult to explain it to some one else. Somewhere everything can be unrestrained. Where there is no impossibilities, where the Lord rules as Antaryami.

Today I was thinking about what my heart's deepest yearnings are. My thoughts flew back to Thiruvallikeni. அந்த அகண்ட வீதி, கோவில், பெருமாள், சேர்வை, கோபுரம், புஷ்கரிணி, sahasranamam, பீச்,கடல், காத்து,மண், silence, ஸ்ட்ரீட் கிரிகெட், கோஷ்டி, புறா, மொட்ட மாடி, சுண்டல், அம்மா, அப்பா,...

what I want to be:
மடிசார், ரெண்டு பக்கம் மூக்குத்தி, காதுல மாட்டல், தலையில் ராக்கொடி, நிறைய மல்லிகை பூ, குஞ்சலம் ,காலில் கொலுசு ,மெட்டி, கை நிறைய வளையல், நெற்றியில் ஸ்ரீ சுவர்ணம், கண்ணில் மை, உதட்டில் சிரிப்பு, கண் நிறைந்த கணவன், அம்மா, அப்பா, பாட்டி, எம்பெருமான், கோவில், சந்தோஷமான வாழ்க்கை. கலங்கம் இல்லா உறவுகள்.

What I am:

Hair dyed red, cut short and styled into a feather cut, pants and shirts, skirts and tops, slippers and shoes, mechanical engineer working for a fortune 500 company, single and supposedly happy, searching for "something", travel loving, camera toting, jet setting young woman. Wanting to complete her MBA in one of the top schools, crack and top GMAT, Wall Street Journal reading aspirant.

Who am I deceiving?

9 comments:

Compassion Unlimitted said...

Beautiful..
Deceiving, no, I dont think so
Can it co exist,Think hard , it may be possible
TC
CU

THIRU VIKRAMAN said...

It depends.If your deepest yearnings happened and still your happiness is on hold and you wanted something else, I would suggestyou to stop waiting for that moment and start enjoying the present with what you have.On the other hand, If you think that these yearnings will give you utter bliss(Long lasting happiness), then you should better listen to your heart and act accordingly.

arethusa said...

Oh man, we both want the best of both worlds, don't we?
...
Reading your posts make me go, 'Oh, we should talk, we would have so much in common, and so much to keep nodding our heads like crazy, going, 'That's exactly how I feel,too!''

:-)

Vanjula said...

@CU,
I think abt it every waking minute.
@Thiru,
very nice. succinct. practical advice. was like,"hey..this is what I need to do. but then how?" still thinking.
@Arethusa,
I actually thought the same when I went through your blog. We should get in touch sometime..maybe in gmail or something and chat. It would be great.

I am piscean. and Kataka in moon stars. Both of them walk 2 worlds. I am always split. :)

arethusa said...
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Asuri Sudarsanan said...

9-kajam, double mookkuthi, sri-charnam and wallstreet journal in hand! - avvalava porundaadhu ;-)

and do what may.... an engineer, that too a mechanical engineer and wanting to bcom an yembeeyay??? ada raamaa!!

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