Epdi erukelll??? ellarum? Doing fine wherever you are? Really missed this place. Been wanting to be back and a lot of thoughts constantly whirring around the mind but never a point to tie them to.
So many blogs to write and so many thoughts to share. But somehow the mind refusing to co-operate at all. Just the effort to log on to the internet and type out the words. Something rather like I better be wound up like a tight ball, or a black hole, consuming everything given to me but not spit one thing out. Just be spun into a vortex and pull everything into myself.
It is a phase with me. There are phases when I would just be spilling words like I have drank like a fish and pour, pour, pour out syllables whether it makes sense or not. Then I will be in a phase where I will hardly say yes or no. If I speak, that might be for food. And anyone forcing me to speak would rather be talking to the cat or the wall...
I got into one of those moods and it has lasted a long while. I moved from the States, quit my job, left my car behind, everything has changed in a short while. So many changes.
And my wedding took place last week. I have been hugely silent about it. For no apparent reason. I did not publish a single post.
The only reason I feel apologetic about is, I used this cloak of silence( There it comes!!! The preamble to this blog) to be entirely silent and hid it within a close network of cousins. None of my friends knew the date nor the venue.
For some strange strange strange reason. I am sorry for all of this. Really. Really. Really Sorry. But as such I dont make any excuses. :(
Well. It was the traditional girl's family meets boy's family. Boy meets girl in a relative's house. Talk, see if things work out, get married.
My husband (wow!!! feels really really strange..:)) Like a chinese word or something!) . Working for a top multinational financial institution now wound up in a matrimonial institution also. I call him M. Very religious, extremely patient (Imagine getting the silent treatment from the minute you got married.(Actually from the week before the marriage). He is from PSBB, then went onto B.Com and MBA in the top school in the country. He is also very close to the Ahobila Mutt and the present
Jeeyar. Was His sishya in Poorvashrama.
Parthasarathy Perumal kovil has been a fixture in my life. Adiyen had the Bhagyam of being enveloped by the Grace of Swami Thelliyasingar in the temple and I always consider Him to be my God. At those times when I was in the temple, my life has been revolving around Him. Some days when I used to be in the temple in the mornings, I used to see newly wedded groom and the bride coming to worship in the temple right after marriage. Manjai veshti, Panchagajam, Madisar, Thirumangalyam, Maalai, Perumal. Samashreyanam. These were my only thoughts of marriage. I used to pray to Emperuman to grant me this favor alone.
And He did. Adiyen had the Bhagyam of praying to Swami Azhagiya Singar and Malolan in the Ahobila Mutt right after my marriage. Had my Samashreyanam done and received the blessings of the Jeeyar. Adiyen had the Bhagyam of being named Vanjulavalli for my wedding ceremony too. So V is no longer my psuedo name only. :)))
Had some real fun with my maternal side of cousins before and during the wedding. Then my husband's cousins and now mine were with us cheering us like crazy. It was an adrenaline filled week.. Really hectic and not much time to think about anything else.
So. With everything now behind me, my husband all set to return to the UK later this week, my hands found their way back to my lapppppieee and here I am back again.
I know everyone will be extremely angry angry angry with me but please excuse the tardiness.
I was thinking about all of you when the Nischiyathartham took place. So many people I could have met.. Should have rightfully invited to the wedding. Should have spoken to, could have invited online. Somehow.
My latest phase of silence has been so bad that I am hoping that it can be classified as pre-marriage jitters and tensions and whatever.
My blogging friends : Sumanth, Sudarshanan, Sundara Paripooranan, Compassion ji, Balaji, Prakash, and everyone else :AM REALLY SORRY. :((((
My friends from another world : Naresh, Venkatesh, Ambika, Sundar, PB, poookattu anna, akka, Lakshmi --- PLEASE PLEASE FORGIVE ME. :((((
and this is my husband.
