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I really really did not know what to name this post. It is more like a complete "polambals" stuff. I know I am very very lucky. I am blessed. I have everything I wish for and more. But.

There are sometimes when you just need somebody to be next to you. Thats all. Thats what I am wishing for now. I am in my lab. It is 7:30 in the evening and I have a long night at hand. But alone. Like 5 more hours of work without a soul to turn to.

I have bee struck by this ennui that is tortuous. I have so much to do. My ANSYS project, my controls assignment, Math assignment. But I just cant get to bring myself to do that extra bit of effort to snap shut out of this ennui. I am sitting in the lab. I just somebody to talk to me. But isnt it strange that when you really need a person to see, to talk to, to turn to or just to keep you mute company. You really dont get one.

But when you would rather be alone and by yourself, the rest of the world is dropped on you and every Tom,Dick and Harry is out eavesdropping on your innermost thoughts!!!!

I have my finals in 2 weeks. That is the last of my coursework and I am absolutely happy. Yes. Definitely.


I am sick of deadlines, homeworks and assignments and tests!! All I want to do is work at a nice research centre, come home to a bit of gardening, three weeks of travel an year and thats it!!!

But right now. I just need a human to sit by me and think out aloud, to talk, disturb me, make fun, laugh, rant nonsense. Anything. Anything. As long as it is a human. I just dont care. Really!!!

Oh God! Express delivery, a human being...live one please!