What would you do?

Life is extremely strange. At the moment we think everything is settled to doing something : it turns out to be exactly opposite. Here I was thinking that I was almost decided on something, it turns out that it will be some more time before anything is decided at all.

But one thing I learnt out of it was that everything in this life is an experience. Happiness personifies each and every aspect of our life. We should never be escapists. Doing something seeking to escape from something else is to be avoided at all costs. There is no happiness is seeking something that is afar. Happiness can come from within ourself when we choose to liberate it.

Each point in our life is like a learning station. A major milestone. Every waking moment is a milestone. What we do next, the event that changes our life. These are points where we can never ever go back and correct something. The computer I work on(every computer for that matter) has a point to which you can restore to.

Though there are times I wish when these points could apply to life itself : rewind back to the point when I decided to quit wheels India. Rewind it to the point when I met Sugantha. There are times when I decided quite wrongly(or in a particular fashion) which has changed my life to an extent that can never be undone. I know that this is true in each of our lives; When we have been irreplaceable, when we have replaced someone else or when we have been discarded and we have done each of these to someone all over again.

There is comfort in truth. I have never lied about my values/relations. This might be a passing comfort but sometimes just does not help you. What is truth when it might make more damage than lies? What is anything compared to a friend? What is anything compared to a life?

What happens to your values in test of fire? Would you live to see truth win rather than your friend live? "Asthvathama hatha ha; Kunjaraha". The chariot touched the ground at that point; But the Lord did not desert Yudishtra.

Belief; Faith; Hope; each one of these values are transient and permanent in their every instant of our lives. Hope that things will be alright someday. Belief is someone who will make things better. Faith that you will help to change the world.

But when the blow strikes, will you be a rat deserting a sinking ship? or a captain sticking the last part of his duty? What would be better? Staying alive to fight the next day? Or to die honored but never win?

When doubt assails each nerve of your existence? Am I a winner? a quitter? am I worth anything at all? Is anything I believe worth everything I give it to?

There are no right or wrong answers. Only decisions and consequences. I would seek to support a friend rather than to speak the truth. I would stay alive today to fight tomorrow. But when the time of reckoning comes : when the blow falls:

what would I do?