Spring is here!

Finally. After a winter that was not a winter after all - we have stepped into a reluctant spring. It is kind of cool, kind of warm. But if you are the sort that jumps into sleeveless sweatshirts and light capris as soon as the sky outside becomes a pale blue - like me - Spring is here to stay!

After the long rainy spring and summer of last year - this is a very refreshing change. Bright, crisp, sunny, beautiful - green. I think the colour of England should really be green. The trees have this mysterious quality that reminds me of the ivy infused greenish atmosphere of the Robin Hood land. It is this ephemeral green that seems to hang between the trees as though it is not the green of the leaves but the green of the air, that the very essence of the ether in a woodland is viewed through a green lens. Wow! is the word. It is so pleasing, happy and otherworldly that you feel like one of the elves from a Lord of Rings still.

Muddy brown Thames, green banks, blue skies, white clouds, colourful boats bobbing up and down, canoes and paddles being readied along the length of the banks in Richmond - it is one of the most beautiful sights in the world even. There is this placidness, a certain 'je ne sais quoi', sang froid in the landscape that is entirely British. Something that says nothing changes if the above scenario is converted to a black Thames reflecting the clouds above, no sun, no warmth, nor mirth in the air. Nothing changes. The guy biting on his tobacco wearing a sailor's cap will exchange it for a poncho and go about his work. Quintessential picture of 'Adathu mazhai peithalum vidathu nadagam nadatha padum'.

Closing my eyes, I am trying to visualize what I felt today walking down the street. It was strangely vacuous - just a happy nothingness that filled me. I was too drunk in the sunshine to be having serious thoughts. Surely I did not think that I would come back and blog. Spring is definitely around!

One thought that I did have was that I should not waste the sunshine. The few precious months that the sun is out so long. It is a pity that I cannot fill a drum with it and use it over winter. It is one of those ' now or never' moments that should galvanize you to just get going. Ohmygod! The sun is going to set. What a frivolous worry - given the problems facing the world. Situation in Ukraine, climate changes, black holes and all I worry about is the sun setting?

Well. That is my world. I close my eyes to the problems that we face everyday. Those few minutes in the sun make me think that everything is alright. Whatever happens the sun keeps shining. Above the clouds. Above the rain. Above all the chaos that rages around me. When I lift my head up and see the sun - in that minute my face creases into a smile. My mind freezes into a happy nothingness and I forget everything but the warmth.

Tomorrow be another day. The sun shall still shine! 

6,706,993,152!!!

How quickly is the population of the world increasing? When I used to read figures such as 2 babies a second, and things like that, I never believed them. What? Don’t the Mahajanam of the world have nothing else to do other than to deliver babies.

((On a side track: imagine the possible business opportunity here : Gross :but : 2 nurses, 1 obstetrician, a couple of orderlies, hospital instruments/ accessories, goods for the kid after born. Man!!!No wonder there are so many diaper brands around!!))

Well. The actual point here is: I start to believe it now. All my friends are either in the process or have delivered a cute little bundle of joy (today..who knows what tomorrow) and successfully added to their carbon blue print and personal blueprint.

The only news I seem to be hearing is “I got hitched!! – (tch tch..gross but true) or “hey, you want to hear the junior?”

Though I am looking forward to seeing, playing with, hugging, kissing each of those kutties, I cant help feeling that I would be a lousy mom.

I love kids. Of all sort. Be it human, pup, kitten, cars(look at that cooper)..anything. But once they get over the age of 4-5, the lovable, cuddly things they are, I just give up on them!! (Exception being my kutti cousin Srihari who is too much of myself to properly hate).

My proposition is this : Anyone having a kid, and working, feeling guilty to leave the smallllll one at home and go, bring your kids to me. I will take care of them free of charge.

Waitaminute..Did you really think you will get out of that one so easily?? The terms aren’t over : I will send my kid over to each of one your houses after he or she is over 4 and you got to take care of them..:))

Nalla plan la? Nejamave ithu namba puranathula kooda eruku. Epdinu kekareengala?

Krishnu kutti ya kooda ipdi than avanga apparu ittundu poi Jashodama vootla vuttutangalam. Nalla thayiru, paalu, vennai ellam thinnu, looti adichu, paatharatha odachu—ithellam thevaiya? Appuram nalla pulla aana vudana thirupi ittandu vantangalam..

So concept not novel. Not untried. Yosichu solunga. :))

Wrapped up!

Sometimes we are focussed just on one subject that we fail to note that things have flown by. Sometimes literally life has flown by. My last post was something to that effect. I was so focussed on the fact that I was hurt deeply by one person and actually blocked everything else from my mind. But that is so unfair. To all the others who have been thinking about me, being with me, making my life a blessing and giving it a meaning.

Mostly of all M. Who has been so patient with me and my paranoias, we have had a lot of fun. In London. London has been great so far. I have had 8 whole months of my life in Europe. Been to Germany. Turkey. Actually I have sooooo many things to blog about that now they are rushing in a tumble on me. :)) Getting a license in England (whew!!), finding a new home, sharing things. Finally someone always to come home to (right now : be at home to)- It has been wonderful Thanks to Emperuman.

Glorious friends. Prashanth who came to visit me this month and we had a great fun : M, Prash and me :)) It was wonderful. Roaming all about London like teenagers, laughing and rolling with laughter most of the time. We have hopefully persuaded him to get married and hopefully he will soon..

Right now I am searching for a job. Trying to do something totally different and new. Hopefully. Hope is such a positive thing. :))

Most of all. It is a reminder to myself that I am the only one suffering with long lost memories which are useless. As the people who the memories are about. Our memories are the only things that torment us. destroy our lives when the very life is blowing by.

:)) Thanks to all those who make our lifes happy, fill them with cheer and moments worth remembering as memories. To all others, give them selective amnesia. :)